Save Me

Oh How does one spread his happiness when one doesnt feel love. Oh how does one love when one is not forgiven.

How obnoxious one can be. How wretched one can be. How destructive we can be to our loved kin. How self condemning we are.

Thank you Abba Father for loving me, forgiving me & for i cant save myself from myself.

New train Line to Joo Koon

This is wad i meant by a badly planned Joo Koon mrt. just look at the bottleneck at nearby train station. looks like everyone got to spend romantic time appreciating sun down at jurong mrt together instead of old cosy dinner after a good hot shower in front of the TV. Oh well, just a typical day like the self-claimed best train service in the world service.

A week's Reflection vol.1

The week passed with me pondering deeply over a conversation i had with a long friend about his married life & living with his happy yet sometimes grouchy grandma whom he would sometimes irritate her just to get a kick out of it (Hmm, awfully familiar~!). then he said, nowadays his jovial 80 Year old grandma felt weak in the leg & dislike long journey & could barely stand long to make dinner.

How can someone whom we live with, see and bicker everyday, suddenly grew so old???

i was thinking to myself,"boy, my mum is not getting any younger & about to turn 70 soon~!" i hope i could leave her with as many beautiful memory of her son whom she loves so much. i'm so thankful i can still see her everyday healthy & chubby~!

Breakfast at McDonald's

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):

I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree. The last class I had to take was Sociology. The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called, 'Smile.'

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions. I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway. So I thought this would be a piece of cake.
Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning. It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son. We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then
even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside me as I turned to see why they had moved. As I turned around I smelled a horrible 'dirty body' smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men. As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was 'smiling'. His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.

He said, 'Good day' as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation. I held my tears as I stood there with them. The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted. He said, 'Coffee is all Miss' because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm). Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes. That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action. I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray. I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand. He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, 'Thank you.' I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, 'I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope.' I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, 'That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope.' We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers. That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love. I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand. I turned in 'my project' and the instructor read it. Then she looked up at me and said, 'Can I share this?' I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class. She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student. I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn:

UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - NOT LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE. There is an Angel sent to watch over you.
In order for her to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.

An Angel wrote:

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart. God Gives every bird its food, but He does not throw it into its nest. Send it back, you'll see why !

A Box of gold

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With a secret inside that has never been told

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This box is priceless but as I see

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The treasure inside is precious to me

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Today I share this treasure with thee

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It's the treasure of friendship you've given me.

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Time made to be precious

i fell sick for a week, fever with headache made me bedridden most of the time. reminiscing on old times when i was young. i used to wait for my mum at the bustop at 4pm where she would come home from work. she brought me to KFC even when times our family has no extra money to spend.

This saddens me, i want to give her a good life now that she's retired. God help me please.
Thank you for giving me a loving, self-sacrificing mother who loves me with her whole heart. please give her a good long life for me to be filial to her.

You Matter To God!

John 10:33… he calls his own sheep by name…

Do you sometimes feel like you are just a face in a crowd or a number in a system? You are identified by your social security number. Even when you see the doctor, you are called by your queue number. If you feel depersonalized and dehumanized, that is exactly how the devil wants you to feel — that you do not matter much to anyone, especially to God.

But you do matter to God! He calls you by name. He knows exactly what you are going through and where you are hurting. He sees you and cares for you, just as He cared for the people when He first walked on earth.

My friend, He will do for you what He did for the woman in Samaria. There was a shorter route from Judea to Galilee, but the Bible says that “He needed to go through Samaria”. (John 4:4) In other words, Jesus deliberately took a longer route, so that He could stop by Samaria to speak to the woman who had been searching for something in her life to satisfy her.
This woman had had five husbands and the man she was living with was not her husband. Clearly, things had not been going right in her life. She was probably looking for answers and fulfillment, and must have felt ashamed about her failed marriages and current lifestyle.
Yet, in spite of all this, she mattered to Jesus! He needed to go to her to minister to her. And indeed, after she met Jesus, the perfect Man, she was transformed. She was no longer ashamed, and went into the city to tell the people about Him. (John 4:28–29)

Beloved, Jesus came a long way from heaven for you. You certainly matter to Him. He came to give you life and life more abundantly. (John 10:10) You are not just a face in a crowd or a number. No, He knows you by name and has a personal love for you. And in spite of the mess which you might be in, He wants to meet your every need and make your life beautiful!

Love Hurts

Parents were expressing e difficulties & heartaches of guiding their children through their teen years,"Maybe if we didnt love them quite so much it wldnt be so hard", the father added,

Even thou love brings pain and sorrow, what would life be without it? In his book The Four Loves , C.S Lewis wrote:

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must guve ur heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully around with hobbied and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of ur selfishness....The only place outside heaven where u can be perfectly safe from all dangers of love is at hell."

To love is to take risks, to expose our hearts. sometimes it hurts! it hurt Jesus christ, but he kept on loving-even at the cost of his life. And He asked us to "love one another as I have loved you."

Thinking it over, how have u been hurt by those you've tried to love?
Have you been tempted to withhold ur love from them as a result?

Oh i'm ashamed that i've wasted the period of my life witholding love to others!

My Heavenly Father was faithful and lifted my head from the shame. i loved & i lived thru my Saviour!! Yay!!






The same power that conquered the grave
Lives in me
Your love that rescued the earth
Lives in me

The Star in the Window

During WW II, it was a custom in US for a family who had a son serving in the military to place a star in the front window of their home. But a Gold Star indicated that the son had died in support of his country's cause.

Years ago, Sir Harry Lauder told a touching story abt this custom. He said one night a man was walking down a New York street accompanied by his 5 year old son. The little fellow was interested in the brightly lighted windows of the houses and wanted to know why some houses has a star in the window. The father explained that those families has a son fighting in the war. The child would clap his hands as he saw another star in the window and would cry out. "Look, Daddy, there' another family who gave a son for his country"

At last they came to an empty lot, and a break in the row of houses. Through the gap, a star could be seen shining brightly in the sky. The little lad caught his breath, "Ooh Daddy", he crided, Look at the star in the window of heaven!!0 "God must have given His Son too!"

Yes, there is a star in God's window. Do you realize what he did for you? Out of his love for us, He gave his son.

For God so loved the world, He gave his only son(John 3:16)

Graduation day

3 yrs passed in a blink of an eye and left some pondering whats next. lets reminisce the past, decisions takened. friends made.

Bright future awaits in mystery only for the brave to embark their journey.

A Father's encouragement

when things didnt go the way you wanted, when relationships are sour, when loved ones refuse to be contacted, when your heart is down, when the future looks gloomy and dark.

Things arent going to stay this way. things will get better

your heavenly father has a way out for you.

Just call out to him & he will surely answer with great joy to come & save u.

To my heavenly father who finds joy in me, his beloved. my saviour!

The Barber

A person went into a Barber shop to get his hair cut, while the barber was cutting his hair, the barber started complaining abt God. "i believe there's no God. IF He is out there, why are they so many unfortunate things going on? If He exist, There wouldnt be so many orphans. If He exist, there would be people dying of dieases! If He is a loving Father, people wont have to suffer!!"

The person kept quiet because he didnt want to start an arguement. When the barber has finished, the person went out the door and saw an old rugged beggar with a long unkempt hair.

This time the person turn back in the shop and said to the barber with indignation. "There no such thing as a barber!" the barber exclaimed "but i just worked on ur hair!" the person"If there is a barber, Nobody wld have a rugged, unkempt hair". The barber said"Mayb its bkoz they forgot to go to a barber!"

You see, why people suffer when met with trial is because they forgot that there's a He, our heavenly father who wants to love us, protect us, waiting for us to call Him for help.

Our Daddy God loves u & me.

The Man wrote the Thesaurus

i saw in today's newpaper abt Peter Mark Roget, creator of the Thesaurus. here's a summary of the events in his life.

He came from a distinguished British family. His mother suffered severe depression, often accusing the ervants of plotting against her. Both his sister and daughter suffered depression and mental problems. his uncle, British member of parliament Sir Samuel Romilly, known for his opposition to the slave trade and support civil liberties. he slit his own throat while Roget tried to get the razor out of his hands.

After reading this, my first reaction was oh my..What a terrible Life~!! this man's life is ruined, robbed of every ounce of happiness, filled with grief, pain, suffering, woe and bitterness!! his work, the list of words he compiled, just seems so little significance!

Then i carried on reading and discovered, many writers have declared their debt to Roget, including Peter Pan's author. British journalist Simon winchester held Roget in honour for reducing tremendous amount of work that allows writer to look up rather then think it out.

i realised how God can put meaning in one's life even when it all seems hopeless, even when the whole world(including me) thinks your life is over! what fantastic work this man has accomplished in his life that has benefitted millions! WowW!

At first glance, this man's life was cursed! all i could see for a moment was Woes! i couldnt see any blessing!



Blessed is the man who counts his blessings(realise one is blessed of many things daily!), Woe to the man who is blind to his blessings though they come in every form daily.

Do u see your blessing?

Dear Father, thank you for your blessing everyday that comes unconditionally though i do not deserve them but u still give them nontheless through ur grace.

Who is this lady? Part 1

I found myself in a dimly lited corridor filled with photo's of people dancing gracefully in the world of their own. Just then a lady appeared walking slowly along the dark corridor. i thought to myself,"is she the owner of the photos?" i have to talk to her! i called out to her with all my might~! "Wait! Slow DoOOown~~!" my efforts to catch a glimpse of her failed.

i was mesmerized by her display of demeanor ....and her long lustrus hair.

Who is this lady who appears vividly in my dreams? i look forward in seeing her in my dreams again.

How precious is my life and your life?

My life is costly & invaluable~! it cost the life of another in exchange for mine. and its not just my physical life that is redeemed!

To win us and redeem us, my Lord Jesus had given up His own life.
He loved us when there was nothing in us to love, and made our lives precious by the price He paid.

No matter what you have done. no matter the world says of you. your life can be turned back~! its not the end. there is hope my friends.

Discover the wonders of Life 18 march 08

I found 2 important things in the y 2008. i found excitement and blessing.
isnt it a wonderful mystery of life to reflect just a few months in 2008, and already found 2 blessings.

i found excitement when i discover there are many things i didnt know how to do~!! for instance, i learnt how to play piano!! the moment i heard the beautiful melody coming out from my own 2 hands, it was simply Magical~! i learnt how to dance, its like a form of expression thoughts not by spoken language, but through my body i can convey messages! what a graceful discovery for man to create dance! people dance only to show their happiness.

i am very blessed to have a healthy life, beautifully made body, hands & legs(Thank God for ur beautiful creation)~! to be able to learn all those things i dont know how to do now. very blessed indeed.

Dear heavenly Father, teach me to count my blessings, that i may recognise when one is before me!